Thursday, September 4, 2008

I forgot!

It is funny the things you can forget.
I forgot how hard this baby stage is, it has been so long since we have gone through it. Zeke is almost 5 now and he was such a hard baby!
Moses is following in his footsteps! Here it is almost 4 weeks since his birth and he still has not mastered the day and night difference. It is 2 am and Moses is wide awake!
The evenings are so hard if he is not sleeping or eating he is crying. Zeke was the same way I literally sat in front of the TV watching Friends episodes because Zeke would only sleep if someone was holding him!!!
I never thought I would get so much use out of seasons of Friends again but here I am about to start season 3 at 2am!
I know I will miss this baby stage but right now I want to skip ahead to where I am feeling somewhat normal and healthy and can sleep for longer than a 2 hour stretch!
Nursing is such a huge task of giving up your self and time for your baby, I love that i get to do it and am grateful for it, I just never realized what a sacrifice it is!
Anyway keep praying for us, I am hopefully on my way to recovering from the mastitis. Wow did that hit me hard!!
Well off to watch the antics of those crazy Friends!
Sleep tight all you lucky people!

14 comments:

ThePuertoRicanSlant said...

Moses and Audrey might be kindred spirits...Audrey didn't sleep at ALL last night either. She decided to pick the night before I started school...ALL NIGHT alyssa...why...why???

La Rodriga said...

Yeah...it might be a while before either of us can sleep for longer than a few hours. I think Audrey is getting more teeth.
I concur about the nursing thing, though. It is a sacrifice. I kind of resented it at times. I'm thankful that I can have the experience and I know I will have mixed feelings when I stop doing it, but it is hard to constantly push myself aside to feed the little one. It taught me quite a bit about how selfless I am not :) Hang in there!

Kari Q. said...

oh girl...i think of you and pray for you often. you are quite an amazing momma. i have decided that it is a boy thing...their goal from the start is to try and test every boundary, including sleeping when everyone else is. it sounds like eli and moses will have lots in common :)

Jessica (Probst) Eveland said...

Alanna was the same way. People would tell us lay her down she will stop crying. Nope 2 hours later she was still screaming. We were closet co-sleepers for the first 2 years of her life. It was the only way to stay functional, she slept in our bed for 2 years.

Luke was a good sleeper from the first day he was born. Always slept in his crib and was a fast nurser. Just depends on the kid!

Hang in there! You are an awesome mom & you are doing a great job!

Juliette said...

Wow does that take me back about 6 months ago! I feel for you girl right down to the Friends episodes at 2am except mine was The Office on DVD and recorded episdoes of Big Brother :) It will pass, it will get easier and until it does I pray Gods supernatural strength and endurance!

Anonymous said...

It's one thing to have a tough baby who never sleeps when he's your only child- yeah, that's definitely tough. It's a whole other thing to have a demanding sleepless baby when you have two other children--including a 19-month-old!!!! Holy moly, I can't even imagine. You are a saint in my book. Hang in there!!
And yes, nursing is definitely a personal sacrifice- especially in the early days. I consider it my single greatest challenge- but such a great gift. I know you'll be happy you stuck with it.
Love, Jaime

Erica said...

You really posted this at 2 am that's amazing. Hang in there.

Steve, Karen, Delaney, & Jude Dunlap said...

I love how you're trying your darndest to keep up a good attitude. Way to go, mama.

Fleck, the Mrs. said...

Hang in there girl! I remember when I was nursing Judah feeling like that's all I did...and it sucked (no pun intended). It's like the longest few months of your life but then you look back and realize it whizzed by. I'm glad you're starting to feel better.

Becky Moseley said...

I enjoyed some "Friends" episodes, too, in the middle of the night. Keep trucking...

Shannon said...

I watch Will and Grace, because I am always in a different time zone and awake really late :-) But I know this is NOTHING to what you are dealing with!

The Wardles said...

I so remember those days, in fact I remember them so well that I can't get myself to try for a third:)

TNgeekmomma said...

Oh Alyssa I miss you. I think about you often. I will definately be praying for you. I totally felt like a cow when I was nursing. I know this sounds bad, but Cameron really loved to nurse, and it was hard and frustrating at times. She is not much different now, as Hewson would say "Cameron eats whatever is in front of her" Tonight she had her whole dinner down before I sat down. I don't even think she knew what she was eating, because after she finished she asked for pizza. I watched a lot of Law and order during those nursing years, because it was always on. Love you. Hang in there.

Kim Day said...

Oh Alyssa, I will be keeping you guys in my prayers. Dylan was a very difficult baby too....I felt like I never got any sleep, and he screamed all evening, every evening. Hang in there- as you know, it goes by so fast. Soon this will just be a memory.